Soul Gypsy

Growing up amidst the beautiful wilderness of Colorado and being inspired by works like Lord of the Rings it was natural that I became gripped by the QUEST. As a youngster I spent much time in the mountains exploring the rugged terrain that had once been the great Ute Indian’s.  In high school I was fortunate enough to have the circumstances and mentality to travel to South America and Asia to study for two of my four years. But exploring the world was not as epic and idealistic as I had hyped it up to be. Not to say that my experiences were not epic but I had very humanly hoped that the pain that came with such journeys could be some how transcended. Yes, I was very conscious that the trips would be intense and uncomfortable but I, like most humans tried and tried to run from the pain and hardship I encountered.  It has taken me these experiences of great pain(great pain in a very very relative sense) a lot of fortune and luck to realize that it was  my very running and inability to embrace that brought more suffering. In some respect, part of the reason for my desire to live and study in these different cultures was a manifestation of how I suppressed my pain. Although I certainly I had good-hearted intentions on one hand, on the other hand I was “questing” to prove myself as a bad-ass to the world. So in part, these quests were like burying nuclear waste. Sooner or later the toxicity leaches out into the earth (maybe not the best analogy but I hope you get what I mean). To say the least, I was addicted (and still am to a lesser degree) to great paradox of the Painless Quest and only found myself in perpetual suffering. Reality Check! Questing is a painful, arduous and often life threatening endeavor.  Just look at the great archetypal bad-asses like Lao-tzu, Jesus, Siddhartha, Gandhi to name a few.  To them, pain was just another hommie there to help them along the way. Embrace that shit for it is this type of pain that  keeps our heart beating until the last breathe……QUEST ON GYPSIES, QUEST ON AND NEVER STOP

peace,

mizairubian